May 13, 2022
I feel like I keep forgetting to stand back and just feel as opposed to actively trying to engage with my body and make something happen.
Every once in a while I experience this interesting rushing feeling of energy. I felt my heart so strongly at one point radiating a warm feeling.
A light in my head would get really bright and flicker.
Dreams
I’m arriving at a book club. There’s a big table and there’s lots of people sat around chatting. I take an available seat at the head of the table.
Someone else walks in. It’s a large man. I think he’s out of breath. He also takes an available seat.
I’m in Media Arts class in High School. Mr. Matthews is teaching. I keep talking to the person next to me. Mr. Matthews keeps telling me to stop talking. He’s getting very frustrated.
I’m walking through an empty supermarket. I think it’s night time. The place feels closed. I’m listening to Rubber Soul on my headphones. Now that I’m awake I realize that a lot of the songs I heard don’t exist, but in the dream I knew that they were part of Rubber Soul. They sounded like the Beatles but also like SMiLE by Brian Wilson. I remember one part where there were a lot of harmonies and it reminded me of the beginning of SMiLE.
I’m just observing all the fruits in there. I’m getting up close and just staring at them. Suddenly someone is walking down the stairs. It was Liam dressed as a detective. I point and yell out- “Detective!”
He kind of laughs and tells me to shush. I didn’t realize how loud I was due to having headphones in. He comes further down the stairs and I can tell he wants to make me laugh. I do my best to ignore him, because I don’t want to wake the sleeping people above. I continue to look at the fruits as he goes into the bathroom.
I’m outside the house with the neighbour, Jack. He tells me he’s dying of cancer and that he has 6 weeks to live. I’m stunned at first, but then I get somewhat excited for him.
I tell him that this is gonna sound crazy, but that death isn’t real. I ask if he’s heard of NDE’s. He says he has. He says that he’s been watching those videos and it makes him feel better. We get excited discussing the topic.
I tell Justin and Jamie about that stuff too. Eventually I can’t tell which of the three brother I’m talking to. They keep changing and they all look similar in the dream.
I’m acting in some movie. There’s no one filming, but somehow I know it’s a movie. We start at one section outside a little building and we act for a long time, walking and walking and acting out scenes. Later on I’m heading home but I can’t find my shoes. I retrace all the steps I took in the scene. I don’t find them. I even reverse time so that I can see where I lost them. I still don’t find them. It’s interesting to see some of the conversations in reverse.
I’m in an underground garage with dad. We find Papee’s red car underneath a tarp. Someone had bought it from us years earlier apparently. Now they’ve modified it. It looks slightly different. It looks more like a hot wheels car. They also tried putting new paint on some sections of it, but the paint is chipping. They made some mistake when painting it.
I have to park a car into one of the spots. I think I used some sort of autopilot thing. I just push a button and parks for me. The only problem is that slightly grazes another car.
There’s smoke coming from the neighbour’s house. Jason and someone else in our house have already run outside. I’m still getting my shoes on, kind of taking my time. Jason runs back to make sure I’m coming. I tell him that I should be ok. I don’t feel much rush. Then I say that I guess it would be bad if the fire spread to a tree and then that tree fell on me. After I think about that I start hurrying up a little.