June 17, 2022
“Have a cigar, my friend.” I said, handing my son a cigar.
“Thanks pop.” The boy lit that cigar and made a face of relief. He knew his time had come.
“How are your feet?” I asked.
“Not so good. They’re worse everyday. I’m thinking about offing myself.”
“I know the feeling,” I said, nodding in support.
I went to the kitchen and spat in the trash can. Then I put some water in the kettle. I wanted to make my boy one last cup of coffee before he transitioned.
All the liars are on fire again. They’re falling out of their apartments. I think someone already called 911. It’s a pretty horrific sight if I’m being honest. I don’t know who set them on fire.
Dreams
I’m at a Vipassana centre, but it’s also a retirement home. I’m there to stay for 5 weeks. I’m volunteering to give company. When I go in I see a guy playing guitar and singing for someone. I recognize him from the open-mics. In the dream I was thinking that he didn’t sound very good.
I have my guitar with me. I volunteer to play music and to chat with the seniors. The seniors choose who they want to give them company. One of the organizers tells me that I won’t have trouble being picked because my hair looks nice.
I’m in a theatre watching The Beatles Get Back documentary, only it’s different from the real thing. Charlotte is sitting next to me, and someone is sitting next to her.
In the movie Paul and John’s personalities are sort of reversed. Paul has written the verses for A Day In The Life, which John wrote in real life. Paul is showing this to John for the first time. Paul seems a little shy about what he’s written. John is sitting at the piano and plays what he’s heard. He really likes it. He gets into it.
Then they’re recording the song. They have a bunch of people in the room singing into microphones hanging from the the ceiling. It sounds really nice.
There’s two random people dancing. They’re dressed in colourful clothes. They seemed familiar to me.
Charlottes says to the girl next to her ‘There’s no one like this in show business these days!”
When she said that I was thinking ‘I want to be like this in show business! I want to bring it back!’
I’m in a bathroom with some girl. I think it’s a girl who worked at AIL. We’re checking the toilets. We might be cleaning them. I say to the girl that she’s so pretty.
She asks if I’m only saying that because she’s not wearing very much clothing. I say no. I say that I’d never noticed it before.
It’s not until she said that that I notice how little clothing she has on.
I get nervous that she’s going to tell her boyfriend what I said and maybe he’ll be mad.
Later on I’m in a room with this girl standing next to me. There’s a large man there as well. He seems to be the director of a play. I’m just observing, but then he looks at the girl and I and gives us instructions. He says to start running through the halls as if the floor is opening up beneath us. We start running. We have this sheet on that we’re kind of wearing over both of us. We’re hopping along and kind of holding each other at the same time. We run up some stairs. One the second floor I see the Revue Cinema through the window. I start thinking how weird it is to see it, because I was just talking about the Revue with Denzel at work a couple days ago.
We run back down the stairs. I jump at one point and she catches me in a way that prevents my feet from touching the floor. We’re both laughing. She’s able to carry me no problem. We don’t seem to weigh very much. We kind of jump around in slow motion.
I’m at Jackson’s house in his basement. There’s a big pond on the floor. The walls of the pond are built from clothes. The pond is for turtles. There’s headphones in the water. I remove them.
Jackson and his family come in the room. They’re all wearing masks. His mom starts implying that she wants me to wear a mask. She’s making weird jokes. I take the hint and put my mask on. She offers me this sort of scent for my mask. It makes it smell nice.