June 23, 2022
I hit the wall hard. I just wanted to sit there and eat salad. I was really lazy. Fuck this shit.
Why! I didn’t do anything wrong.
I want to run away. Why am I a lazy dog. C’mon, Kai.
You can do it.
Listen to the bubbles in your stomach. Listen to those colours.
Feel them?
You feel your head?
WHO’S TALKING!!!
I’m a BIT CONFUSED CAN I HAVE HELP?
YAH. Duh.
Keep feeling your body. Feel your head. Just keep letting us in. Its ok. We’re here with you.
Yah I feel it. I trust it.
Everything is moving now.
It’s just a little scary maybe?
I don’t want to be scared. I know it’s good.
It’s ok to be scared. It’s ok just let things happen. Let things fall where they may. You’ve experienced this before. It’s all happening for a reason and you’re part of something very special and important.
It’s ok. Just breath and feel your heart and your breath and the air around you. We love you so much. We are always with you. We love you. Keep helping everyone around you. Keep making music for them. Keep talking to them and loving them with your words.
Ok. That was cool
Thank you for that.
I would love to talk. To be in the light. To feel the wisdom. To grow. To evolve. To seed the universe.
You’re doing just that. You and me. C’mon Kai. Let’s keep going and growing and feeling.
What the fuck is this place? Why is anything here! That’s what confuses me so much! Why should anything exist?
Don’t look at me buddy. I don’t have all the answers either. It keeps going on an on and on. Just when you think you figured it out it keeps going forever and ever.
Feel your toe. Feel that. That’s alive and it wants you to know that you’re in good hands and that you’re doing a great job and that we all love you so much. We are here for you whenever you need us. We just want to say that you should always let people into your heart and that you should try to allow others to speak and to express themselves. Let them figure things out. Let them understand for themselves, even if this takes a long time. There’s no rush. You’re no better or worse. You’re all just playing together. You can love them and encourage them but not much use in trying to teach them. Not yet, at least.
Focus:
Figure out Bass stuff today.
What’s a good growing and evolving bass line for ‘On My Own’?