My Disappointment

  Jan 9, 2022

I’m so disappointed in humans today. All my hopes have evaporated like a drop of water thrown onto a hot stove. What happened was this- I was outside this morning, walking up my street. I saw a particularly disheveled looking man walking down towards me with his dog. The dog looked cute, it looked like a Black Lab. The man was far from cute. His hair looked long and greasy. He appeared to have forgotten to shave, for his face was patchy and looked dirty. His whole air looked like a sad, sad, unpleasant young man. So anyways, I was walking into my apartment, all the while looking over my shoulder at this man, when I noticed that he’d stopped with his dog in front of a tree. I paid close attention here, because two days prior I had put a box at the side of the road full of items from my house that I was giving away. Now I stood and watched, to my horror, as the dirty man stood by dumbly as his dog raised a leg and began peeing on the items. I turned to walk towards the man and say something, but by the time I got to the box he had already walked down the street a short distance, and I didn't know if yelling after him would accomplish much. I couldn’t believe this man. I just could not process it. It just made no sense and REALLY made me scared for this world. I picked up the box and tossed it into the apartment’s garbage bin. As I went inside and began making coffee I became more and more agitated. I was furious, but slowly began to realize I wasn't furious with the man, but with myself. I felt like a coward for not saying something, for not yelling after him and letting him know that  I was glad to finally know what the face of stupidity looked like. I wished I'd had a little more courage.