May 11, 2024
My feet are nearly numb. It’s freezing in this house. There’s no heating and it’s 2 degrees celsius outside. I can’t wait for warmer weather. It’s not too far off.
I hung out with Jayne and Mark today. We went out and did errands. I also bought new shoes. I was with them for 6 hours.
Mom is in Jasper with Liam. I saw a photo. I wish I could be there with them.
I’ve been listening to an audio book of the Emerald Tablets. It’s blowing my mind. It’s just like the book Initiation I read in January.
I’m ready for sleep. I hope that they don’t ask me to come into work tomorrow. I want a day off! I feel like I’ve been so busy. That’s a good thing. I just want a day to finish that book. I’m also gonna call dad tomorrow.
My roommates have been closing the doors really gently during the night. I’m been amazed. I didn’t even wake up when Leila went to work on Friday. I’m grateful for that.
There’s a fire burning inside of me. Thoth says that my body is a planet, and that I am the star at the centre. I am the light that everything else orbits. It’s amazing.
He built it all. I want to keep exploring that world. I’m fascinated by the ancients. I’m also interested in knowing what’s inside of me. I want to travel the universe and explore. I want to know the truth of myself. I know that it’s beyond anything that I can imagine.
The power was given to the children of men. They descended into darkness and raised their level of vibration over thousands of years. It took time.
I was out shopping with a basket full of cash. I could buy anything I wanted. I had enormous spending power. I went to the counter and spoke to the girl. I asked her for cigarettes. She gave them to me. She asked if she could have one.
“Sure,” I replied, removing the plastic wrap. I handed her a little cigarette and lit the dart for her. “How’s that?”
“It reminds me of my dad,” she responded, a thick cloud of smoke surrounding her face. I could no longer see her. She was hidden by a thick wall of white cloud. Lightning erupted around her ears. Rain fell onto her chest.
I was walking home through the snow. My socks were wet. The lights from the cafe’s was orange. The water rippled and reflected the city lights. I could smell bread. I saw chimney smoke blowing through the wind.
I arrived at my apartment. I kicked my boots against the wall before going inside.
The elevator ride was quick. I entered my apartment and turned on the kitchen lights. My friend’s dog was sleeping on the couch. He raised his head as I took off my coat. I sat on the couch for a minute and scratched his back.
I went to the bathroom and took a warm shower before bed.
The dreams I had scared me. I thought I was in Ramsay’s kitchen. I was being screamed at. I was being chased by that British man. He threatened to flatten me with his rolling pin.
I escaped onto a ledge. I was 50 stories in the air. I could barely hear the city below. The wind roared through my hair.
Gordon jumped out onto the ledge. He slowly moved towards me, like a jungle cat.