April 5, 2024
I think I’ll stay in Christchurch a little longer. I told Despina from work that I’m leaving in a month. She mentioned that Dimitri is also leaving at the beginning of May. I realized that I may as well stay longer in that case. One of the main reasons I wanted to leave was because of how much I dislike working with him. I get physically tense and stressed out when he’s around.
Ideally I could pay off my credit card before I leave. I’ve still got $1900 to go, so it will probably take another couple months.
Dreams
The next morning I was still on the patio with a couple other guys. My crush arrived. She asked if anyone wanted to go to her room and learn about Egyptian history with her. I raised my hand. We went into the kitchen.
I told her that I used to have a huge crush on her. I also asked how her life had been lately. She said good. She said she’d started a relationship with a little person. I felt really sad inside. I didn’t show it. I kind of lost interest at that point and wanted to leave. I was really hurt.
I was at a bar at night. I was the only one there. I had my guitar. I was super drunk. I was being weird and random. I was standing up and looking out the window when I noticed that there were people coming. I panicked and freaked out. I had made a mess all over the floor. I tried cleaning everything up. I was still drunk. It was open-mic night. More musicians were coming in. I was very embarrassed.
One of the guys had really nice things to say to me. He told me that I was an amazing guitar player and that he loved my voice. I was a bit surprised by that.
I was watching a movie with a bunch of other people. They were all talking amongst themselves. They were completely ignoring me. They acted like I wasn’t there. They kept speaking over me.
Someone asked a question to everyone except me. I finally snapped. I asked why she didn’t ask me as well. Everyone thought that was funny and started to laugh.
Someone asked a question to everyone except me. I finally snapped. I asked why she didn’t ask me as well. Everyone thought that was funny and started to laugh.
I was driving with Liam. We came out of a tunnel. There was a beach on our left. I noticed a car was out on the sand. It was flipped upside down. We parked and went to investigate.
We pulled a woman out of the wreck and made sure she was ok. We called her an ambulance.
Liam and I were going to jerk off in the same room at the same time. I hung a blanket up between us. Someone came into the room before we finished.
Lee, Lisa and the kids came to visit me. They were annoyed when they arrived. They said I was supposed to call them. That made me annoyed. How was I supposed to know they wanted me to call? We had already made the plans. I had been waiting for them to arrive. Why did I need to call them?