I feel really spent. Kind of overwhelmed. I want to make a change in my life. I’m going to try and do my best to make sure I have all my things finished by 9:30ish from now on. That way I can spend the rest of the evenings meditating.
Going Crazy Again
Mar 16, 2023
I was so close to drinking today. I don’t really know why. I feel like I’m going crazy again. I was so excited when I was told I got the job. But now I haven’t heard back in like a week. They said that HR is gonna send me an email. Something about that email allows me to sign up.
I don’t know how long to wait before I keep applying to other places. I feel shitty again. I don’t want to be here. I just wish I had money. I really wish I had that financial freedom. It's just this horrible feeling. I feel like I’m chained.
Today I put some more songs on band camp. I’d like to have them all up there. That way I can include the link in my YouTube videos. I have two more albums to post.
I want the most the amazing job that lets me travel the world.
I feel really spent. Kind of overwhelmed. I want to make a change in my life. I’m going to try and do my best to make sure I have all my things finished by 9:30ish from now on. That way I can spend the rest of the evenings meditating.
We’ll see how long that lasts. I’m so sick of hearing myself make commitments that I never stick to.
I feel really spent. Kind of overwhelmed. I want to make a change in my life. I’m going to try and do my best to make sure I have all my things finished by 9:30ish from now on. That way I can spend the rest of the evenings meditating.