June 9, 2024
Dreams
I was in an airplane. There was a problem. We were flying very low. I was terrified that we were about to crash. Suddenly the plane seemed to get caught in some cables. The pilot came out from the cabin. He told us that there was a problem. He didn’t know how much longer these cables would hold us up. There was a river beneath us.
We had to go into the underside of the plane to fix it. We had to go quickly because of the threat of being flooded.
We ran through the inside of the plane. I was running down a hallway. I opened a door and found myself in the house in Toronto. I walked into my bedroom. After a while I realized I didn’t have to worry about the room flooding. I seemed to be safe.
I was walking to the house in Toronto. My shoes and feet were soaking wet. I couldn’t wait to get home.
I opened the door and found the house filled with people. Liam had apparently invited all of his friends over. I went to my room. There were six or seven people there. A girl told me that she was going to sleep in my bed with her boyfriend. I told her no, but she wouldn’t listen.
I told some other guys that I didn’t want them in my room.
I kept apologizing to them for being rude. I also kept telling them I didn’t want them there. I felt guilty and angry at the same time. I guess I felt powerless.
The dream ended in tremendous relief. I can’t remember whether because I woke up and realized I was alone, or if the people in the room disappeared and I was finally alone. It was one of the two.
Dolus the deceiver has been with me for some time.
I had a dream that I was at Dimitri’s restaurant. The family was yelling at me. I was making souvlaki’s on the floor for some reason. They were yelling and telling me to stand up.
I felt that they hated me. They seemed to think I was dumb. I felt humiliated, embarrassed and ashamed. I pulled myself out of the dream, trying to escape.
I woke up in bed. I immediately realized it was the ‘the deceiver’. He had tricked me into believing that I was hated.
I identified him immediately. I had fallen for his lie. I fell back to sleep.
I feel like I’m going through one of those shifts that happen every so often. It’s always exciting when it begins. It often seems to happen during transition periods.
The last big one was when I arrived in Christchurch. That’s when I was reading Initiation. Now my time in Christchurch is coming to an end. I’m discovering Carl Jung and Joseph Campbell. They’re helping me in a big way. I’ve been interested in looking inwards for years now. But the exploration has occasionally felt vague, like I’m just feeling my way around in the dark.
These two guys are on some level encouraging me to identify the thoughts and emotions and to assign mythic identities to them. That’s been helpful.
The one that is really interesting me is the trickster/deceiver.
Jung is encouraging me to see my thoughts as not being the self. I’ve already been familiar with this, but for some reason it’s now taken on a more practical dimension.
I’ve always known to practise identifying with the awareness, not the contents of the mind.
But now I’m seeing the contents as actual entities. Other conscious entities. And the one that seems to be constantly present is this trickster figure.
I asked ChatGPT to recommend books, myths or legends that include a trickster figure. The one that resonated with me was the Coyote from Native American Folklore.
The Coyote was described as 'A trickster figure who appears in many Native American stories, known for his clever and often humorous antics.’
That resonated because of the humours aspect. There’s something in me that is constantly telling me jokes and making me laugh.
But it also has a dark side. It seems to convince me of negative things. It tells me things that aren’t true, and I end up feeling self-conscious. It creates doubts and insecurities.