July 28, 2023
I’m in Melbourne at the moment. I have the day off work. I did my Australian taxes this morning. It said I’m gonna get back about $500 which is good. I still gotta pay about $2700 on my credit card, and then $3000 to mom. I can’t believe I owe so much money. It’s crazy. I’ve been working for two months now. But I’ve been sober for about 6ish weeks. That’s where most of the money was going. I spent so much money on drinking. But I still don’t quite understand how it was $8000 in total. That’s just insane. It really started in February. That’s around when I started going in debt. I finally started paying it off about a month ago. So I somehow spent $8000 in four months. It’s really weird.
I’m in Melbourne at the moment. I have the day off work. I did my Australian taxes this morning. It said I’m gonna get back about $500 which is good. I still gotta pay about $2700 on my credit card, and then $3000 to mom. I can’t believe I owe so much money. It’s crazy. I’ve been working for two months now. But I’ve been sober for about 6ish weeks. That’s where most of the money was going. I spent so much money on drinking. But I still don’t quite understand how it was $8000 in total. That’s just insane. It really started in February. That’s around when I started going in debt. I finally started paying it off about a month ago. So I somehow spent $8000 in four months. It’s really weird.
Right now I’m just focusing on the credit card. Once that’s payed off it will be a big relief. I’m flying to New Zealand in November. That’s about three and a half months away. I’m hoping to do similar work to what I’m doing now. I wanna pay off all my debts and start saving money. I’d like to also apply for my British passport.
It feels so good to be sober. I completely forget that I was drinking. It’s so weird. I kinda forget that I spent so much time drunk recently. It’s almost like a nightmare. I’m just relieved it’s behind me. I don’t even think about it anymore.
There was a big hearing the other day about UFO’s in the US. It really surprised me. They talked about crash retrievals and reverse engineering of spaceships. They talked about alien bodies as well. It was interesting to see all the news outlets talking about it in a much more serious way. Probably the most serious way I’ve ever seen. There’s a new feeling of realism. I’m really happy about that. I feel like this has opened the topic in a really important way. It’ll only gain momentum from here. I can’t see it going away ever again. I just really hope that people like Steven Greer can speak. I love how often he’s reminding us that 99% of aliens are not hostile- it’s us that are the violent ones.
My dreams are pretty interesting lately. Mainly because it feels like I’m more aware of how long the dreams are. It’s pretty regular now where I’ll wake up and assume I’ve been asleep for like 10 hours, only to find it’s only 1 am. It’s really interesting. It’s not so much that I can remember the specifics of the dreams, but I can remember how long they’re lasting. It’s like I’m living whole other lives and having all sorts of experiences, which I’m sure are just as real and relevant as my waking life. Last night I had one of those dreams that are different. I’ve had these kind before, not often. I was looking at a star in the sky. Someone was telling me about it. They were saying the name. I think I remember the word Omega. I also remember something about non-binary I think. But anyways, there was some sort of transference of energy. Something shot out of the star and shot into my mouth/throat area. It was like all this light was being pumped into me. And the feeling was really incredible. I’ve had like two other dreams where I can remember clearly feeling this amazing rush of energy. It happened last night and it felt really special, like I was being upgraded or something. I feel like there were two other interesting events last night, but I can only remember that one.
The house was full of children. They were running in circles. The mom was trying to calm everyone down. She grabbed a piece of bread and held it aloft.
“Who’s hungry!?” She sang.
The kids stopped running and started up at her. Then they touched her in inappropriate ways.