July 21, 2022
Dreams
I’ve climbed up a huge dump truck. It’s as tall as the skyscrapers. I’m looking down on some construction sites for condos close to the waterfront.
Someone gets in the truck and we start driving. I’m still way up top. I have to hold on tight. I’m kinda hanging off the edge. It’s sorta nerve racking but fun. I feel safe as long as I hold on tight.
There’s a cat with me. I have to hold her tight so she doesn’t fall.
The shape of the truck changed. It became more like the shape of a cargo freighter, in that the driving seat was up top at the rear, and the ‘bucket’ of the truck was below. There was this big pole that was above the bucket. Like a tank’s cannon. I was sitting there with the cat. The driver stopped very suddenly. The cat fell into the bucket, which was full of groceries. The cat started hissing like crazy at the driver. I jumped down and got the cat. I put her in a bag. I got back onto the pole.
One of the ladies who lives at El Pueblo was in my dream. She was Carter’s mom in the dream. We were all in her unit eating food.
Lots and lots of colours are coming your way. Can you feel them? I think you’re onto something. Have you gone inside? Have you gone deep into the feeling you get in your body? Just stay with that warmth, and don’t be afraid to recognize the happiness you feel from time to time. Point it out to yourself.
Lots of times we start to feel like we’re sinking. I know it’s happening at times when you least expect. I know that this is not what you wanted. I promise that it’s normal. Much more normal that you realize. It can be also be beneficial. It’s a part of your experience.
You’re always growing. It’s like when your limbs were getting longer when you were growing up. It hurt when this happened, but you felt excited at the same time. This is a helpful way to look at difficult situations.
Remember that you’re just pure love and light. See yourself as all that is and all that ever was. It’s sorta like being in the centre of a plaza and everyone is around you, hugging you. They love you very much. You can’t see them right now but they’re there with you all the time. It's happening very intentionally. Lean into those memories you had. The ones you had when you were a kid. Those recurring dreams that you sometimes experienced. It’s all meant for something. It’s all speeding up. It’s going to be ok. I have such faith in you. I have such a good feeling about you. I want you to know that even though the sun is going to set, you are not. You are always shining like a bright fire. You need to really understand this part. There’s really nothing to fear. You’re on the most amazing mission. It’s very big. Much bigger than your house and your street and your job and your hobbies. It’s much, much bigger.
All the lights in the house are like little points of awareness. It’s totally cool.
I’M COOL! I’M AN ADDICT WITH NO ONE TO LOVE MOI