I Need Routine

 Feb 13, 2023

All my life I’ve wanted to build up my energy so that I could catapult it into the sea. It would enter the waves and just turn on like some great lava pit. That would make all the sailors happy. They’d be able to drift into the abyss.

Have you known that you were smothered? Did that ever occur to you? What about when you realized that you were different? Didn’t you notice it then?

I thought you had to go away for a while. You said that you were underground in the cities. Didn’t you grow your own food down there?

It’s happening at an astonishing rate. Everything is getting built up like you wouldn’t believe.

I need nail clippers. I need to have a food routine. I need to understand how to use blogger. I would prefer that each post has things created on the same day. 

I guess the best thing to do is to try and write every day.

But what if I’m posting photos from a couple days ago. And I wanna write about that day. Then I’m gonna have to write something, and the writing won’t have been done the day of the photos. Maybe the posts are dated when the writing was written.

 

I did some busking today. I was there for about two and a half hours. I made about $20. I would’ve stayed longer but the battery for the guitar amp died.

There’s an open mic tomorrow. I’m gonna play at that. 

I would like to see if I could get a job playing at one of the cafe’s or bars around here. That would be awesome, because that way I could make money and practise. It would be consistent and a reliable way of making money. 

My goal is to make $500 a week. I have no idea how I’m gonna do this but it’s my goal. I don’t want to work jobs I hate. I gotta get creative.