September 18, 2022
The leaves of fall are among us. They’re shining bright with signs of change. It’s in the air. Almost everyone can feel this. Most of us are psychic, I guess. Those who aren’t are as well, they’ve just long forgotten. But that’s not the point. What I’m trying to say is that I love you. I want you to remember that. I only want you to know light. In order for this to become manifest you must know darkness. Don’t worry, because we’re always just over your shoulder when you need us. But honestly, you’re pretty self sufficient at this point. You’re more independent than you give yourself credit for. You’re not as naive as you think.
It’s just that you’re always thinking about the sun. It’s not a conscious thing. It’s happening below the surface. You can’t stop thinking about it. It overwhelms you with awe. It does for most of us. It’s so powerful, relative to you and your planet. It’s mighty. But you know this is only an illusion. You know that the same fire is within you. It’s within all of you. It’s burning bright and hot. You feel it, but you’re so used to it that you don’t notice it. It’s the kinda thing you’d only notice if it were removed. That would be a real shocker if that happened.
It’s just that you’re always thinking about the sun. It’s not a conscious thing. It’s happening below the surface. You can’t stop thinking about it. It overwhelms you with awe. It does for most of us. It’s so powerful, relative to you and your planet. It’s mighty. But you know this is only an illusion. You know that the same fire is within you. It’s within all of you. It’s burning bright and hot. You feel it, but you’re so used to it that you don’t notice it. It’s the kinda thing you’d only notice if it were removed. That would be a real shocker if that happened.
Those sea lions are communists. They were actually put there by Stalin in the last century. No one bothered to keep tending to the beasts after the collapse of the Soviet Union. Now they just live out on the rocks and eat squid. They’re not natural animals. They didn’t evolve like that. They were made in a lab, deep below Moscow. They made all sorts of beasts down there. They actually invented kangaroos. Kangaroos are not natural. They were built by communists and then deposited into Australia. The soviets also invented penguins and wombats. You know that I speak the truth. Don’t fight the feeling. Just get over yourself. You’re a mightily small brained compared to the cosmos.
That man above is a fear mongerer. He’s trynna scare you into submission. You are not big or small. You’re both and neither. No such thing as size, really. It’s all relative, isn’t it. You are like clay that is constantly being molded. You’re just happy to be here. That’s a state that you wanna strive towards. Just happy to be here. Wherever here is.
Inside of her is warm. But it’s also cold. Because it reminds me of my individuality. She is alone and she longs for hands on her body. She calls me into her room. She’s under the covers, but I’m kinda tired of this game. Besides, the sheets smell stale and there’s dust on all the ledges. I wish she would transform this place. I wish we would move. This house is sinking into anxiety. It’s rattling back and forth at a speed that is so rapid, that we almost don’t notice it. But we do. I do, at least. I think she see this as normal. I keep telling her it’s not. I tell her that we could live better than this. I need her to trust me, but I also need her to trust herself. I can’t do all the work here. I need some help and I don’t know who to ask. She’s always blaming herself. I’m scared she’s gonna do something bad.
Have you seen the twin towers? Have you felt the tin? They’re made of tin. The twin tin towers.