She Buys My Soul

 Dec 20, 2023

    The lacquer on the wall looks so attractive. I actually wanna run over and fuck it. Then I wanna sell my soul. I’ll sell it for a good price.

So the next day I took a few good photos of my soul. I posted an add on Facebook Marketplace. 50 assholes messaged me within an hour!

    One lady seemed nice. She said she’d love to buy my soul. She would use it for her dog. That way her dog would be man-like in nature. I said ok, but asked if she could make the payment. I was charging $50. She said that she would do whatever was necessary to find me the money.

    The sun had set. It was evening. The owls were on the roof shitting all over my cars. I heard a knock at the back door. I army-crawled towards the door. I stuck my head through the cat-flap.

    “Hi! I’m here for the soul!” Said the lady. She was very friendly and had a big head and big hair. 

    “Oh yah,” I laughed. “Can you just put the money in my cheeks? Like a chipmunk!”

    The lady turned red with laughter and agreed. I made sure to pucker my lips. I created a small slot for the coins to pass through. I was pretending to be like a machine that takes coins!

    “This is crazy!” She said as she inserted $50 worth of coins through my lips and into my cheeks. 

    To this day I think about that lady. I sit in my house and wonder how she’s enjoying my soul. I pray that she was happy with her purchase. That’s all I ask for. 

The Compass Of Love

 Dec 19, 2023

    Today Pete and I woke up from our deep rest. It was a beautiful morning. 

    We went into town. We went somewhere to get breakfast and coffee. Then we walked around looking for camping equipment. After that we did groceries. Then we went looking for the geysers that we’ve been hearing about. We kinda found them, although the main ones weren’t free entry. 

    Then we went on a nice hike/walk. It was a forest full of huge red woods. Apparently they’d brought them over from California. They looked super cool. We then climbed up a hill and saw the view. It was heavenly. We walked for about an hour and a half. Then we went back into town so that dad could charge his stuff and do a bit of work at Starbucks. I tried reading but fell asleep instead. Then we went back to the campsite. 

    I played the piano for a little while and then went for a swim. Then I had dinner and played guitar.

    
    The compass for the directions was acting funny. The toddler couldn’t find his way home. He kept smacking the tool against his chest. It was no use. Everyone had left him! They’d already departed in trucks. Now he was gonna have to figure out where to sleep.

    Countries aren’t real. They’re just made from mud. The whole thing is like a rubics cube. It’s designed to fall apart and then reassemble into tiny pieces. It’s very high-tech. I’m sure of it. Even if you just stared at the stars you’d start to understand the universe. 

    The great green toad sat on his throne. He had a cheeky grin. He observed the road below. He took no notice of his long dick that was growing pimples and dimples. He embraced the law of change. The eternal truth.

Starting The Road-Trip

 Dec 18, 2023

    I’m inside of a tent right now! I’m here with Dad. He’s in his own tent . It’s the first night of our road trip. We’re right next to a small lake. It looks super cool.

    This morning I woke up and had breakfast. I called mom and then took a shower. I had to check out of the hostel by 10 am.  I left my stuff in the luggage room and hung out at the library. I called mom again and talked with her and Mami. Mom talked about her call with Liam. Apparently Liam’s not mad at dad or anything, but he feels like it’s award and he doesn’t know what’s going on or why dad is sorta ignoring him. Mami said that she got a new bidet.

    Dad picked me up and we drove out of Auckland. The traffic was quite busy. We went to Kmart and got some stuff. They didn’t have some things we needed so we kept driving and went to the next one. 

    In the car we almost got into an argument. I kinda lost my temper a bit. He was talking about how people will use labels for people as a way of de-valuing them. I said that he’s literally doing the exact same thing by calling people anti-vaccers and conspiracy theorists. He basically said it’s different, because some things are true and some things aren’t. Then he started talking about Joe Rogan and how he has people on his show that don’t know what they’re talking about. I kinda lost my cool and just said that I don’t want to get into this stuff, but that I’m a conspiracy theorist by his definition. I also said I think it’s such a low thing to do to use labels for people you don’t agree with. After that it was kinda quiet in the car for a bit. 

I just really don’t know how to deal with those situations. I don’t know if I should just sit and keep my mouth shut. I also don’t know enough to articulate why I disagree. That’s the frustrating part. I can’t physically remove myself from the situation. I don’t want to play stupid and just agree to make things easy. I also don’t want explode and start disagreeing. I wanted to learn to be diplomatic. I want to be able to disagree while still being completely level headed and calm and polite, but strong at the same time. I also don’t want to get into a long discussion about it.

    We went to K-mart and everything was fine after that. I found the rest of what I needed. We continued driving and we eventually arrived at the town. Everything suddenly smelled like farts. I thought it was dad. He said it was sulphur from the geysers. Apparently this town has cool hot springs and geysers.

    We went to the campsite and so now we're here. It’s really cool. 

    Goodnight!!! 

My Father Arrives From Above

 Dec 17, 2023

    I’m in the hostel in Auckland. It’s my last night here. Dad arrived yesterday. We went for dinner. We had burgers and then went for a walk. It’s been a year since I’ve seen him. 

    I can’t believe he hasn’t talked to Liam in so long. That really bothers me, but I’m not gonna say anything. I’m sure they’ll talk again at some point. It just seems really bad. I feel like Dad will really regret that some day. I was thinking today about he used to always tell us that he’d never leave either of us. I feel like he’s kinda done that to Liam. 

    So we’re starting our camping trip tomorrow. 

    I bought a new lens the other day. I got a 28 mm. I sold my 50mm and 24mm, my lens adaptor and my battery grip.

   The sun was rising above the houses. The cats in the shed were sat quite still. They had big eyes like owls. 

“I have shit in my ass,” whispered one of the cats.

“That’s not for our ears,” responded a grey tabby.

“If you want I can give it to you,” said the first cat. “It’s like a present. It’s like that kinda thing.”

    The other cats wrinkled their noses and departed. They left the weird puss sitting all alone. 

    The man is inside of everyone. He watches and attracts particles towards the earth. He’s in charge of the whole show. It’s like his private entertainment. He has so many different methods of experience. He can be anywhere.

Back In Auck's Land

 Dec 14, 2023

    I’m back in Auckland. I’ve been at the Vipassana centre. I met some super cool people. It was a really cool experience. It felt pretty different from my other Vipassana experiences. The centre itself was so cool. It was really beautiful. It felt like being on a different planet. 

    I shared a room with Pierre pretty much the whole time. He reminded me a bit of Bryan. We had some really nice chats in the evening before bed.

     I really started to remember the importance of meditation about halfway through my time there. 

So I’m back in Auckland. Pierre and I arrived together. We spent one night together in a hostel. We went up the Sky Tower and hung out with another guy we met at the retreat. It was nice to be in the city with friends. It’s so different compared to being alone. 

    Dad will be here in 3 days. 

    I took some camera gear to a camera shop today. I took my 24 mm and 50 mm lens, my battery grip, and my lens adaptor. I was hoping to trade something for an RF 28 mm lens. They called me later that day saying they’d only be interested in the grip and the adaptor. Apparently there’s fungus forming inside the lenses. I guess it’s partly because those lenses aren’t weather sealed? 

    It’s alright. I’ll hold onto them. They still work fine. It’s just that they’re a bit bulky when attached to the adaptor.

    I have everything I need now. It’s just about refining things. I wanted to swap my guitar for a smaller and thinner acoustic electric. It’ll be so much easier to carry around. I’ve got a full size acoustic electric now.

    I also wanna get a new scarlet solo. It’s slightly smaller than the one I’ve got now. My current one is starting to kinda fall apart. I also wanna eventually get that canon RF 28 mm at some point.

So yah. It’ll be interesting camping with dad. I’ve gotta get a tent and sleeping back and pillows and that stuff. Hopefully it won’t be super expensive.

    After that I gotta start working!!

Beneath The Sea

  December 10, 2023 

Wallace stood up from his spot on the beach. He absorbed the sun’s rays. 

It took him 9 million years to wake up. The earth was gone when he opened his eyes. He was floating through a yellow cathedral. The beach boys were playing on a stage. They were surrounded by ferns and flowers. A stained glass window let heavenly rays into the room. 

    The crowd was filled with CIA operatives. They were serious. They had no emotion on their faces. They could smell burning toast.

The light erupted from the roof of the building. The surfers exited the hole and sailed down the path of love. They met bunnies and church people.

“Come with us to church?” Asked a young girl.
“That’s a wonderful idea!” Wailed the surf-leader. He ordered his friends into a military line. They duck-walked through the front doors of the heavenly temple.

The Liars stood at the front of the room. They ordered the universe onto its knees. They forced the children to surrender their hearts. The Lord watched in grief.

The teacher finished reading his story. He closed the book and began to tremble with grief. 
“Don’t cry!” Said a student. “You have given us so much. We shall always remember your compassion!”

The students stood and began clapping in agreement. 
The teacher fainted. He began to dream of a wonderful world with sea horses and black office buildings- the world of a dictator’s wet dream. 

The students took their studies seriously. They forced their pencils deep into their textbooks. The paper burned from the intense friction. A thick smoke set off the sprinkler system. The library became heavy with water. The entire school sunk beneath the waves. 

Bryan Cranston was eating ribs when he heard the news. “The students had their lives cut short,” Bryan whispered into his meat. “Have I been spoiled thus far? Have I let life pass me by? Have I grown old and heavy? Am I not content with my contributions?”

The night was a long one for Bryan. He stood tall and erect in the corner of his room. His eyes were fixed on old family portraits. He questioned everything. 

“Have I let my ancestors down?” He mused. “Have I been a burden on my employees and on my children?” 

The rising sun offered little solace for the depressed man. He rode his red convertible to the beach. He watched the young girls fuck their boyfriends in the ocean surf. He grew horny. He became inspired to make something of his life.

The CN Tower was attacked by an angry man. That’s what the paper’s read. The truth was more obvious. It was all a part of a chess game. This was a clever move. The men back in their mountain cavern clapped like excited warriors. They felt closer to being in control. They could finally feel something in their legs! The pulse of foreword movement was a wonderful sensation.

Shiny Toys

 Dec 9, 2023

The stars descended into the forest floor. The canopy of leaves were no match. Everything burst into flames! It was a violent night. Many deaths took place.

    The tower was lit up for spring. Even the last samurai were crying. They fell to the floor and tickled themselves. They just wanted to feel better. They had lost everything.

    The times were changing. Banks were starting to look old fashioned. The people were drifting towards newer coastlines. There was a tremendous shifting of energy. 

    Old wealth was being buried. Newer generations filled their pockets with shiny toys. The sun had aligned in a different section of the sky. The skeptics had been broken, at last. They were treated like anyone else. 

    The higher beings were sent from different galaxies. They landed in the ravine. They set up a farmers marker. Teens were most interested. They smoked weed and bought organic tomatoes. 
The land was blasted by a bomb. It took 35 day to recover. People started selling their bodies in the meantime. 

    Winter was fast approaching. They needed fire wood if they were to survive. 

    Storm clouds rolled in from over the lake. The roads froze and cracked. The gasoline had run out. Cars were parked in random spots along the freeway. The town prepared themselves for a long and painful winter.