May 14, 2024
I feel I need to readjust me goals. I’m finding a daily song and video a bit challenging. I’m often so busy with my two jobs. I feel like I only have time to record tiny little 30 second things. Something every 3 days is ideal. The problem with that is I tend to get laid back and procrastinate. The daily thing is good because it forces me to finish.
I talked to mom, mami, and nana today. It was mother's day a couple days back so I had to do all the calls. It was nice though. Mom called me, I hadn’t planned on talking to her. We talked for a long time. She’s visiting Liam in Alberta with her boyfriend.
I went with Jayne and Mark to church today. The food was really good. It was a nice time, but I find the stuff they talk about so lame.
I used to believe that church’s were a bunch of nonsense and that none of it was true. Now I feel that there’s so much to Jesus that they’re leaving out. They’re putting him, God, and spirituality into this really limiting box. I don’t know why.
Why they be so lame? I feel like they’re treating me like cattle. Forcing me to conform and to believe and to agree. Feels so limiting.
Very simplistic. Very authoritative.
I’m gonna talk to Douma and Yoga tomorrow. I’m also going with Mark and Jayne to their classes. That’ll be fun.
His mother buried her belongings beneath a pile of dead cats. It was a horrible sight. I’m miserable because of this.