June 9, 2022
Dreams
I’m lying down on my stomach in a doctor’s office. My family is with me. I’m having my first colonoscopy. It’s the doctors first time doing this procedure. He puts on gloves and says he’s gonna start. I immediately wish that this procedure would occur at a later date, because I’m worried that I didn’t wash well enough and that it’s going to be disgusting for the doctor.
At first it doesn’t feel like much. Once he’s gone deep he needs to push down with his finger. It hurts a bit when he does this. Then he needs to do it four more times, but they’re all happening at the same time. It’s as if I have 5 butt holes, or as if he’s putting 5 different things inside me.
I’m telling him to hurry up because I need to get up to pee. He has a box with some jars of liquid. They’re all different colours. He needs to apply these liquids in order to remove what he’s inserted into me. He says that I seem healthy.
As he’s doing this I’m thinking about making music. In the dream I thought that I was autistic. I wondered if being autistic helps me to make music. I was thinking about Yoga, and was wondering if she knows autistic people, since she’s a nurse.
I woke up, lying down on my stomach in bed. I felt my butt and was very relieved to find nothing there. I got up to go pee.
I’m with Mom and Liam. We board the new Cross Town LRT in Toronto. I’m very excited to be riding it. Mom takes photos of some of the buildings outside that are decorated with Christmas lights.
Liam and I are on an island. We need to get back to the boat, but we’re struggling because there’s an angry shark. I think we have a very small raft, but we’re scared to risk going out on the water in this tiny raft. I think Dad and someone else have already made it back to the boat.
I’m at the Vipassana Centre. There’s lots of glass on the floor. I think a lot of it was caused by Liam and I. I think we were having to break glass in order to reuse light bulbs or something.
Liam and I are walking and we have a bag of mushrooms. We split them. Later at Kew Park we eat what’s left. I think Liam has become either Jimmy or Brian. One of them has a cup of coffee. They say I can have half of what’s left. I drink much more than half.