May 15, 2022
It’s a beautiful day. The sun is out. There’s a bit of a fog. I guess it’ll get quite humid later. I went for a jog and just finished meditating for 45 minutes.
Yesterday was an interesting day. It just felt interesting. People kept showing up. I kept seeing people and hearing from people. It was really nice. Brian texted me in the morning. I talked to April a bit later. Then I went to work and Tyler showed up. Then Tomas showed up. He told me about seeing Bryan. It was just really nice.
I want to sign-up for Reiki. I’m really interested in it.
Last night I has this really beautiful thing happen. I was meditating before bed. I was kinda getting slightly frustrated because my mind kept wandering and I was having a hard time focusing. I eventually just lay down to go to sleep. I lay down on my back and put my hand over my chest. I started to meditate and pretty quickly I got this really beautiful feeling in my heart. It’s the first time I felt a rush of energy in that part of my body. I only started focusing on it like last week. I was always slightly uncomfortable about feeling my heart. I didn’t like feeling the pulse. It made me uncomfortable for some reason. This last week I’ve been focused on overcoming this anxiety and so I’ve been spending more time feeling my chest. Last night it felt like something opened up and this huge rush of energy come through. It felt at one point like the bed was blasting upwards and I was being pushed down into the mattress it. It was such a warm feeling.
Dreams
Liam and I have agreed to sign up for something with Dave from Beyond The Beat. We finally agree after he says that he’ll include free pizza. We find out that we’re going to have to go to his house, which is in North York area, so quite a ways from home.
Then we’re at 30 Rockefeller Centre. I guess the location changed. Dave has rented out an office for his business. Everything is stripped. Liam and I, as well as Dad, are all there to help renovate. He’s got a great big antique cash register. It’s very heavy. He has me pound reinforcements into the floor to hold it up.
Dave gets notified that someone is down in the lobby. The first customer! He runs out to meet them.
I leave the office and wander around the halls. I find a bathroom. I use it and then keep wandering. All the offices are locked unless you have pass, like in a hotel. I tap a bunch of the sensors for fun, just to see them all turning red. I go back to our office. I hesitate about going inside because I don’t wanna keep working.
Brian and I are hanging out in some sort of study room. I think someone is playing pool. Brian opens a can of beer for me. I stare at it, tempted to drink it. I wonder if I should start drinking again. I don’t drink it.
We get up to leave and agree that we’ll come back next week. I leave the beer on some pole.
I’m at a cottage overlooking a lake. I have mushrooms. I’m wondering if I should eat them. The person next to me says that even though it’s only around 9 pm, it’s still too late to do them, because I’ll be up all night long. I realize that if I eat them I’ll have to cancel walking the dog in the morning. I decide not to eat them.
I’m with dad. He’s pointing to houses and saying that we stayed in one of them at one point. He’s pointing to the area of houses where I saw Miranda and her family. I start wondering if I was in the same house that she’s staying in.