May 4, 2022
I don’t remember much of my dreams. I wonder if it’s because I didn’t have a proper meditation yesterday. Mom and her boyfriend are visiting. Yesterday they went with me to the open-mics. It was a good time. I performed at two bars.
It was weird because there was this guy in the audience who kept saying interesting things. When I first went up I asked how I should introduce myself. He said to tell the story of how my mom and dad met. I thought that was weird because my mom was sitting right next to him. At one point I played a new song that didn’t have lyrics yet. Apparently he went over to mom and told her that she should write poetry for my song. She thought it was weird because she recently wrote some poetry and a friend told her it would sound good with music.
I went up to the man after my performance. I asked for his advice. He looked at me really intensely and said ‘the universe is infinite’. I told him it’s so weird that he should say that because that’s the kind of stuff I’ve been obsessed with the last couple weeks. He was saying that there’s always more to learn on the guitar, and so it’s not necessarily all about becoming perfect.
Dad’s also in Toronto today. He’s gonna come by in an hour to get some stuff. We’re going to swap guitars. I’m excited to have that new one. It’ll be a lot better for the open-mics because it has a proper little setup for plugging in.
I start my second city class today. Then I gotta walk the dog.
Dreams
I’m in the living room. There’s people over. It feels like a house party. There’s some cute girls and they start getting more and more sexual. At first they’re just glancing at me. Then they’re moving their bodies very provocatively and making out with other boys. Then they’re pulling up their skirts. Now they’re fully naked!
One girl who I went to Malvern with is at my right and she’s naked. She tells me to stand up and come over. We start making out. It’s fun, but as we’re making out she’s telling me about her dad. It’s like we’re having a therapy session. I’m asking her questions and she’s really opening up and telling me about the struggles she had with her dad growing up. Somehow we’re still managing to make out.
At one point we bang our noses together very hard and it’s quite painful. I feel my nose and it feels all crooked. I wake up.
In my dream I’m lying in bed. I’m also standing over myself watching myself sleep. At some point I notice that Tyler is there too. He’s on the floor next to the bed. He’s crouched over like a bug. He looks like he’s hiding from my body in the bed but he seems to be staring right at the version of me standing up.
I get really scared. I wake up afraid thinking that there’s still someone there.
I’m in some sort of community. There’s lots of run down houses and there’s kids all over the place. We’re all playing tag. I’m the one who’s ‘it’. I’m counting to a hundred or something. I start going around looking for the kids. I catch them pretty easily because they’re so young and pretty slow. They’re mostly around 5. Some of them are sitting in a grocery cart. After the game is over I’m walking with some of the kids. On either side of us are enormous elephant legs. We walk between them. I don’t even remember seeing the elephant since he’s so high up. We walk between the legs and get worried that he’ll poop on us.
I’d been grocery shopping. I think I was with George Constanza and Jerry Seinfeld. I can’t remember what they were talking about. I think George wanted to start something, like a new hobby or learn something. I think we all knew that he would give up.
When we got to the house I rolled down some concrete stairs. I opened up my grocery bag and saw that most of the eggs had cracked. Only a couple were intact.