Apr 29, 2022
Just woke up. Everyone seems to need something from me this morning and I gotta go to work soon.
Dreams
I was in the dining room of El Pueblo. It was like being in a 30 story building. There was an earthquake, and the building was rocking forwards and backwards, but it was almost cartoonish, because the building would bend wayyy over forwards and then backwards. The building was like rubber. I remember that after a while the bending became faster. I have this feeling that there was some sort of splitting, like I was seeing two different perspectives of everything. I remember someone next to me saying something like it was making them dizzy and that they weren’t expecting it to look like this.
I didn’t feel scared during the earthquake. I might’ve been a bit concerned.
I had a super brief lucid dream. I was in the kitchen and I had a spatula and a cup of water. I started putting the spatula into the cup and it just kept going all the way in! The whole thing fit into the cup! That’s when I was like ‘this isn’t supposed to happen’ and I realized that I must be dreaming. It was kinda shocking, because that particular dream was so mundane. I was just standing in the kitchen. It was kind of an interesting moment.
I was walking along a sidewalk. The road to my left was very busy, and on my right there were all these plots of land. It reminded me of Mexico. The first plot of land had a gate I think, and I’m pretty sure I could see someone riding a horse. I THINK I got some sorta religious vibes, like it was a christian commune or something, but I can’t really remember.
I came onto another plot of land. This one was a hill that went way way up. All the ground was like dry grass I think. It reminded me of Mexico. I climbed a path. I remember that I kept passing people playing sports.
I think I was looking for Dad and Liam. I think I was looking to see if Liam was playing any of the sports. I found Dad. I found him next to some people playing baseball.
I remember that I had to wait a second for the players to finish what they were doing before I could cross between them and get to dad. Then the two of us kept climbing. The hill got very steep.
The next thing I remember is we’re in a room looking out the window. We’re as high as the skyscrapers that are around us. I can see the CN Tower, but in front of us is a building that I know to be in Hong Kong, 1 International Finance Centre. It was the shorter of the two towers. I think it was sunset. It was very beautiful.
I think Dad wanted to keep going. From there we were going down.
Eventually we got to a house. It was Diego’s house. I think Liam was there. I think Diego was letting the three of us stay there while his family was away. Dad said he was hungry. I went and found a little fridge. There were hotdogs inside. I asked if he wanted one. I felt like we were on the boat. He said no and I think he got mad about something. I think I wanted to leave and play guitar. At one point I had to cross the room by walking along a raised plank of wood for some reason.
Something about having to sneak onto a boat. I think we were on a big boat sneaking onto a smaller boat. The boat we were on was huge and high above the water. We were using a Tesla for some reason. We were able to do something so that the Tesla could stick to the hull of the boat and descend down. We got to the smaller boat and I think there was only room for like 3 people. We were hiding I think.
Later we were in a Russian army building of some kind. I think we got there on the little boat. I think we had to blend in. There was a pretty blonde girl who I was talking to at one point. I think she was going to some sort of army school there. Later on she graduated and she called me over. I think she just wanted to say bye. I think she saw me as a good friend that made her laugh, but I was attracted to her. She waved goodbye and left but she made some remark about my hair being a bit weird.
I wasn’t sad when she didn’t have a crush on me, just a little surprised I think. I was still flattered that she thought I was a nice guy.
I remember a huge man walking past me as I went back to the other people at the little boat. I wasn’t intimidated by him. He reminded me of a jock from malvern. Kinda friendly but not someone who I felt much connection to.
I remember there was a lot of rain. I joined a bunch of people under a tarp/shelter. I think I was with Liam. Someone was playing dance music. Evyn started dancing to the music. He was very good. I was impressed by how he was just going for it and really getting into the music. Then Nathan Lee was there and he was also dancing. He was really getting into it as well.
At some point I was in a basement with a band. Evyn was there but I don’t remember who the third person was, maybe Jackson. There was a ring of people standing around us. It felt like a house party. I think I was playing guitar. At one point I swapped with Evyn and went on drums. I was playing horribly and couldn’t keep a beat going. It felt like the drums were falling apart around me.
I felt sorta excited. Similar to when I perform music. Excited with a bit of anxiety.
I’ve been feeling lots of funny feelings the last couple days. Lots of tingling in my head and around my body. I keep feeling slightly disoriented. It kinda feels like everything is almost rocking slightly or pulsing. It feels like under water and feeling the force of the ocean. It feels very strong like I’m being kinda moved around, but not quickly or aggressively. Sometimes when I really feel my body and get calm I start to feel like the tops of my eyelids are wet. It’s a feeling I remember getting when I did mushrooms. They sorta feel moist.
Every once in a while I feel like some part of my body is stretching. Like just as I’m writing this it feels like my head keeps getting stretched forewords or to the side. It feels kinda fun actually.
I read some stuff about dreams not meaning anything. I got annoyed. I put my phone down and felt the annoyance. It was like a big ball of something in my chest, kind of where my heart is. It seemed to have such a distinct form. It felt like a ball. I just watched it and felt it. It had an edge, by that i mean it seemed to have a definite shape. I wondered if I’d generated it, or by being annoyed I’d opened a channel in myself and let it in. I just watched it.
It became smaller and smaller and then disappeared. I could feel my heartbeat quite strongly afterwards.
I began to feel very blissful and calm. Then I got sorta flustered. Often when I feel good it’s followed by confusion. It’s like this panic. I get worried that the good feeling is going to go away, and I feel like I can’t remember how I made it happen in the first place. I can still feel very strongly but I can’t seem to just feel. It’s like my brain is analyzing as opposed to just feeling.