The Final Cuntdown

 July 18, 2024


    I’m at the airport in Buenos Aires. I’m leaving for Toronto in about an hour. It’s a 14 hour flight. We stop in San Tiago. Everyone needs to get off the plane. That’ll be nice, because I can stretch my legs.

    I’ve got my guitar with me as a carry on. I’m a little nervous to see what they’ll say. I was able to take it on last time I flew with Air Canada. 

    I’m pretty excited to get back to Toronto. I’m just excited to see the guys at the house and the family. 

    I’m so excited to smoke a joint. I’ve been craving that moment for months. I’m going to smoke a joint and walk along the boardwalk listening to the music I’ve made these past 21 months.

    It’s crazy to think it’s been 21 months. That sounds like an eternity. It does feel like a while. I sorta feel as though I’ve always been travelling.

    I’ve started picking my classes for York. There’s two that I’m required to take. I’m going to pick one more. All of them are full though. Apparently students with more credits get to pick their classes earlier. I have zero credits. 

    So ideally I’ll only need to go up to York twice a week. That wouldn't be bad at all. 

    Yesterday dad took me out for a steak dinner. The restaurant was pretty small. It had a nice atmosphere. There was a big grill in the corner. 

    There were lots of people. Robert De Niro shot an episode of some show there. They had a photo of him sitting at the table. 

    They served lots of food. First was a Chirazo sausage for each of us. That was maybe my favourite part. Then some fries and a salad. Then a massive steak. I couldn’t finish it. I took the leftovers home.

    We talked about hopefully being together at Christmas. We were saying it would be nice if Liam could be there. Then we could go up to Paul’s cottage and see Carey. 

    Dad broke a glass when he stood up. It fell to the ground and shattered. He felt really bad. He didn’t realize it was his glass at first. After that we went back home.

    I hope there aren't any more fleas at the house. There probably is. I want to get ramen while I’m there, although it’s so expensive.

    I’m going back with $4100 in my Canadian bank account, which is kinda crazy. I thought I’d be getting there with $1000. I seemed to keep receiving all this money during these past few weeks. It really makes things less stressful. 

    I still owe mom and Mami $4000 accumulatively. I’ll send them all the money as soon as I start working.

    I also own pretty much everything I need. I would like to get one of those lens diffuser things for my camera. They make everything glow. 

    I also want a bass guitar, but that can wait until I’m settled in somewhere. And it definitely doesn’t need to be fancy. 

    I sat against the courage of the lord all last night. My dreams were horrific. I witnessed aggressive wars against my father. We were no longer on speaking terms. 

    I also visited my colleagues from Dimitri’s. They had gifts for me. They were pieces of paper with drawing. Despina looked like a fine young beauty.