August 2, 2022
I’m feeling more all the time. It’s getting easier to hold my attention on feeling. It’s interesting to watch my mind get bored. It starts going other places. I have to bring it back to feeling. I can feel more than I ever could. I can feel things that I didn’t know I could feel. It’s this funny flowing feeling. It’s a very interesting and pleasant feeling. Everything is likes waves. I really feel like I’m learning to train my mind. It wants to do its own thing. I have to keep bringing it back to the things I’m feeling. That’s ultimately where I want to be, and where ‘it’ wants to be. It doesn’t now it yet. It seems to think that thinking is where the real satisfaction is.
I gotta go do busking. I’m gonna do it on Thursday. I’m nervous. I just gotta start so that I can get over the nerves. It feels like I’m supposed to do this. I like the idea of taking my music directly to the ‘world’. I sometimes like to think it’s like the same as going walking and seeing a UFO out there. I like the idea of being like this supernatural thing coming into existence right in front of people. I want it to make people have the reaction of ‘oh- so that kind of thing can exist?’
I gotta go do busking. I’m gonna do it on Thursday. I’m nervous. I just gotta start so that I can get over the nerves. It feels like I’m supposed to do this. I like the idea of taking my music directly to the ‘world’. I sometimes like to think it’s like the same as going walking and seeing a UFO out there. I like the idea of being like this supernatural thing coming into existence right in front of people. I want it to make people have the reaction of ‘oh- so that kind of thing can exist?’