Feb 17, 2023
I’m agitated. But not for long. Soon I’ll be floating. I’ll have moved through the illusion of density. I’ll have turned all of the sky into beads of hope. It’ll be like learning how to sing. I’ll notice my hand over my heart as the love starts pouring in. I’ll start to feel for something deeper. Something more natural. It will take some time.
I’m blasting men apart, cell by cell. They’re being blown to bits. Up in the rafters is a pink cube. It floats there. I see it move gently. Like something blowing in the wind. I talk to it in my mind. I sense that it knows me. I think that it’s in the room right now. I can’t see it with my eyes. I see it in other ways. It’s always been a part of this thing I call ME!!!!!
The lawyer threw his book onto the floor. Then he mounted that book. He stood on it. He surveyed the courtroom. “Who here has fucked a shrimp?”
One boy near the front raised his hand.
“What’s your name?” Asked the lawyer.
“Sam,” replied the lad.
“Why’d you fuck that shrimp?” Asked the lawyer with a look of great pain.
“I was in the river. I was looking for gold. And- and suddenly I saw a bird overhead. It was pregnant. The belly was swollen!”
“Get on with it, Sam!” Screamed the lawyer. “There’s only so much courtroom humidity one can handle!”
Sam bowed his head. He closed his eyes and started moving his lips. He appeared to be memorizing Japanese poetry. Then he opened his eyes. “So I was sifting through the river! And suddenly something pressed against my leg! I reached down! I felt something soft against my leg. I- I pulled it from the water and held it up!”
Sam bowed his head. He closed his eyes and started moving his lips. He appeared to be memorizing Japanese poetry. Then he opened his eyes. “So I was sifting through the river! And suddenly something pressed against my leg! I reached down! I felt something soft against my leg. I- I pulled it from the water and held it up!”
“And what it be?” Asked the lawyer as he dismounted the book and crept towards Sam.
“It was a Haitian shrimp!” Cried Sam. “I stared into the eyes of a Haitian shrimp! I knew things in that moment that young boys should never know!!!”
The courtroom suddenly erupted in applause. Grown men screamed like captains of a football team. They punched the air. The lawyer nodded his head and smiled as he clapped his hands above his head. He prompted the crowd to do the same. Now everyone was doing a little jig. They clapped their hands above their heads and did a merry prance.
Sam got down on the floor and curled up into a ball. He was remembering that moment in the river. He tried to hide his tears. He was embarrassed to show his emotions.