Broken Boxes

 Jan 30, 2024

    I’m going to do a second training shift at the Greek restaurant tomorrow. I think I’m a little annoyed. I wonder how much unpaid training there’s gonna be. I guess I can’t complain. It’s not like Tech 5 is getting me work anyways. 
    The people at the Greek place were really nice last time I went. Hopefully it all works out. 

    I’ve been uploading tons of writing to the blog. There’s so much! I’m glad it’s all organized so well. 

    It’s starting to come together. It feels like the kind of thing I’ve wanted for a long time. A creative space where I can include my writing, photos, music and videos. It’s public, but without followers or comments. It’s perfect. 

    Today I hung out in the park by my place. It was nice. I sat on the grass and played some guitar. I also read sone of ‘The Celestine Prophecy.’ Then I went home for lunch. 
I returned to the park with my laptop and guitar and recorded some music. I was working on ‘Like A Tree’. 

    Nine boxes fell from a shelf. A music producer cursed in anger. He started sorting through the mess.
The Beatles entered the room. They were dirty and greasy. 
“What’s on the floor?” Asked John.
“It’s all your sounds,” explained the producer. 
Paul’s eyes became wide like dinner plates. “That’s wonderful! Can I fuck ‘em?” 
George and Ringo roared with laughter. John clapped his hands and jumped around. 
The producer began sweating anxiously. 

   

     Dreams

    I was walking with Skye. We were crossing over the bridge by Danforth Station. We were heading to the subway.
    She asked about my plans for the future. I said I was thinking about being in Toronto for Christmas and New Years, then going to the UK. 

    I was at church. Greg from Castro’s was there. 

    I was in the bathroom of a meditation centre. I was talking on the phone with someone at the front desk. I was asking about their schedule. The woman said they were open in the early morning and in the evening. 
    Suddenly the woman on the phone was outside the door. She was violently trying to open it. I kept slamming on the door to show that the bathroom was occupied. I was really freaked out. 
    We were still having a very cordial conversation on the phone during this. I said that those available times would be perfect. 

Chinese Fish

 

    Jan 28, 2024

    Dreams 

    I’m walking through a city. I get to the Bay and Adelaide Centre. It looks different in the dream. I’m standing in the lobby. I’m hoping that somehow I’ll go up the elevator to see the view. Some latino man comes up to me and randomly gives me a pass. I think he believes I’m someone else. He realizes his mistake and takes the pass back. 

    I leave the lobby with him. I’m in another room with him. Ryan is also there. I’m telling them about why I was standing in the lobby. The latino man gives me some sushi. 
I start to leave. I say ‘thanks for the sushi’. Ryan speaks for the first time and says “you mean ‘Chinese fish’. He’s implying that the sushi was low quality. 

    I leave the room and now I’m in a glass hallway. There’s a person in a duck costume walking towards me. It looks like a real duck, but huge. It scares me. It’s running at me. I have to move the beak otherwise it would’ve stabbed my face. It looks very sharp and pointy. Then I open the door for the ‘duck’. 

    Now I’m outside. I’m filming b-roll on my camera. I’m filming a little statue of two little boys. I remember thinking that mom will say they look like Liam and I when we were little. 
Then I’m walking through a playground. I was wishing that I could just go up to people and film their faces. 

    I’m in Miami. I’m watching a boat chase in a canal. A guy is trying to escape police. He’s on a Ski-doo. He’s banging into other boats. He falls into the water. He starts climbing into a different boat. 

    I’m watching some sorta Jerry Seinfeld documentary. He's a big party guy. It shows him partying late on Friday night. The next morning he’s up early taping an interview with Letterman. He looks a bit tired and hung over.

    Jerry and Elaine are walking along a river. It looks like the big concrete L.A. river, except it's in Miami. The current is very strong. It’s very shallow. 
Jerry explains that all the water they’re seeing is coming from the soil around peoples houses. The ground is so wet that it often leaks into basements. People have to use pumps to suck the water from the dirt around their foundations. This is all the water they’re seeing. 

    Elaine is shocked. She says that the neighbourhood seemed so beautiful when she first arrived. She doesn’t like it as much now that she’s living there. She says that places can lose their charm once you’ve spent too much time there. 

Christ's Corpse

     Jan 27, 2024

    I had my trial at the Greek place a couple days back. It went pretty well. I was just chopping chicken on the stove. All the staff seemed really nice. One girl was from the U.S. The guy training me reminded me a bit of Jimmy.

    Yesterday I was working on music. It was pretty fun. I was also uploading my writing to the blog. 

    I have so much to upload. I’ve done a pretty good job of keeping things organized. The only things that I don’t have are tons of film photos. Those are on the blue hard drive that failed a few years back. I have all the physical photos in Toronto. I would just need to scan them. 

    I don’t know if there was writing on that hard drive as well. There was a bunch of stuff, I’m sure. All the music is safe, thankfully. I started uploading that to the cloud a while ago. I should’ve been doing that with everything from the very beginning. Ah well, it’s ok. There’s still lots more stuff to make.

    The ship was part way to Tokyo. Only three more days of this hell.
    Wallace was in his cabin. He was building a Lego Hogwarts. It helped to clear his mind.
    Skipper the chef was boiling a great big pot of soup. She was running low on ingredients. She’d suggested that the sailors do some fishing. They agreed.
    The sailors dropped a few lines into the sea as they sailed along. They hadn’t caught much yet, asides from a boot and the body of Christ. 

    Dreams

    I was in a kitchen and I wanted to make nachos with cheese. I had the cheese melting in the oven, but then I realized I didn’t have any nachos. I was wondering where the nearest store was.

    I was interviewing Elon Musk on a podcast. I remember him saying that he doesn’t get asked enough questions about personal things. He mentioned having gone to a therapist recently. He said he liked it.

    I was someplace with Charlotte. We were sitting on a bench and we started making out. 

Cube Class

      Jan 25, 2024

    Today I’m at the house and I’m thinking about love. I’m starting to find holes in my blanket. It’s where my cock got stuck last night. I woke up in so much pain. I screamed for help. That’s when I remembered to call my grandma. 

    She was fast asleep. She was lying on her side. She heard the phone ring. She got excited. She snatched it up. “Hello??” 
    “Gran! It’s me!” I wailed. “My cock is stuck! I can’t get it out!”

    “How’d this happen to you?”
    “I was asleep. I was in a deep trance. Fire invaded my dreams. I awoke to find that I was still in pain!”
    “From which point did the pain originate?” Inquired my gran.
    “It was the head of my long cock. It was held captive.”
    My gran began moaning. She had so much compassion. 
    “Don’t ever lose hope!” She instructed. “God works for those who ask! Ask the lord for a helping hand!”

    No more work at the airport for now. I worked there for three days. They said they probably don’t need me today or tomorrow. It’s ok.
    Later today I’m going to the greek restaurant. I’m doing a sorta interview/training thing. That will be good. 

    No more lessons on cubes. If only I could take a lesson on typing. That rule is banned, unfortunately. I thought that there were God’s who were trynna talk to me. Then I noticed that it’s happening all the time. I noticed that even though I can’t see them, I can still feel them under my nails. 

    It’s like a worm that moves through the soil. It gets trapped between bricks of mud. Then the villagers find it. They scream with joy! They yank the worm from the earth. They carry it home on their shoulders! The worm begs and begs for mercy. He is ignored. He pleads as he is covered in fresh herbs. Then he is roasted over a warm fire. Still he begs for love. 

    Have you always been so long?” Asked the doctor.
    “Yes, I was always that long,” Replied the boy scout. 
    “How did you know to find me?” 
    The boy scout looked into the sky. He blinked four times in rapid succession! “I was the victim of a felony. I was seized from my crib. I was raised on a fishing boat in the Indian Ocean. We used to eat fish for breakfast, brunch, lunch, and dinner! There was no getting out of it! Birds were a delicacy, when we could catch one!”

    The doctor scribbled rapidly on his notepad. Then he sighed. He removed his sunglasses. “This is not getting any better, is it.”
    “No it’s not!” Cried the lad, burying his freckled face into his hands.
    Suddenly ‘Getting Better’ by The Beatles wafted through the window. It was coming from someones car! The boy scout and the doctor stared at each other in wonder.
    “It’s a glitch in the matrix!” Screamed the doctor. 
    The boy scout stood up and shook the doctor’s hand. “This was the sign I needed. Thank you!”

    The lad put his underwear and pants back on. Then he saluted the photograph of a famous general. He left the room, his head held high.

Pluto Gave Me Power

     Jan 22, 2024

    Today was my first day of work. It went well. It was at the airport. It was really easy getting there. I woke up at 6 am and talked to Mami on the phone while I was waiting for the bus. Mom and Itza just spent Christmas with her in Montreal.

    I finished work at 4:30. It didn’t feel like 9 hours. We were basically just putting garbage in bins and wheeling it out to a dumpster. I used a power tool to cut some pvc pipes. That was fun.

    Pluto moved into Aquarius yesterday. I was watching some videos about that. It’s going to be there for the next 20 years. It represents a new era. It’s going to have an effect on the culture and the way things are. It’s pretty cool. I feel really lucky to have been born when I was. 

    It’s cool because yesterday I really really felt like something changed in my voice. I can sing in a way I couldn’t before. It’s gotten so much easier. I’m starting to sing the way I’ve wanted to for so long.

    I did some busking yesterday. I just sat on a bench for a little bit and played and sang. It was really nice. 

    Yesterday I also started trying to see my energy field around my hands. I was reading about that in The Celestine Prophecy. Then I watched a video about it. And then I tried doing it. It suddenly seemed like something that I should be able to do. Not something hard and impossible. 

    It’s cool that those two things happened yesterday, when Pluto went into Aquarius. My voice suddenly seeming much better, and my first attempts to actually see energy. 

    I’m pretty tired now. I’m working the same job tomorrow. The whole week actually. That’s good. I’ll have some money again! 

Boiling Bowels

      Jan 20, 2024

    I’m at the house right now. I’m sitting on the balcony. My room is boiling hot. The sun heats it up during the day. I guess that’ll be nice once the weather starts getting colder. 

    I’ve been in this house for about four nights. It’s good so far. I feel pretty lucky that I found it. It’s not too far from the city centre. I can walk there. I have my own bathroom and shower. The two people are nice as well. I got lucky. 

    I’m starting work on Monday. It’s some sort of labour job out at the airport. It’s with Tech 5. That’s the guy I’ve been in contact with since in Melbourne. I’m curious to see what the work will be like. 

    A couple days ago I walked around handing out tons of resumes. I had an interview at a gelato store, and sometime this week I’ve got an interview at a greek restaurant. Both of them are just a couple days a week. We’ll see what happens with those. 

    I think I’d love to work at the theatre. I think it’s called Royal Isaac Theatre. I want to keep applying to that place. 

    I played guitar in the park a bunch over the last few days. I’ve been practising all the songs I used to perform. It’s been fun. I also went to an open-mic on Thursday. That was ok. I feel like my voice is still improving. That’s really nice. I feel like I’m gaining more and more control over it. It’s really satisfying. 

    I want to have a job that I love. I want a job that makes me excited. I want to feel like I’m contributing to the world. I want to wake up excited every day. I want to feel like I’m working a job that impacts people and makes the world a better place.

    I want to have paid off all of my debts. I want to save money. 

Magical Miracles

Jan 15, 2024

    I’m at the hostel in Christchurch. I have one more night here. The first two nights were great, the next two were a bit rough, but the fifth was horrible. There was a girl who kept coming and going from midnight until 5 am. She was slamming the door. It woke me up every time she came in. It was horrible. The room was also boiling hot because it faces the sun all day. 

    Today I went to the reception and asked if they allow people to change rooms. I was expecting her to say no, but she checked for me. She said she could put me into a different room! I couldn’t believe it. I was so grateful. I slept amazingly. The other two people in the room are gone so now I’ve got the whole place to myself! 

    Douma was in town. A couple days ago we met up and went to the park. As we were walking I started telling her about the book ‘Initiation’. 

    I was mainly telling her the story of how I got it. I had noticed it on a shelf at the hostel in Auckland. I immediately got excited and gave it to Pierre. He had told me that last year he went to a psychic reader and she said something about him coming to New Zealand and getting initiated. I told him that here was his sign! I tried giving it to him but he said I should keep it. He already had a book he was reading. I agreed. 

    I flipped through it. Someone had underlined and circled passages and there was writing in the margins. It looked really cool. It ended up being a really amazing book.

    So anyways, I was telling Douma about all this, when suddenly we came upon a big gathering in the park. All these people were eating from a table. I made a joke that we should join the lineup for food. Suddenly a lady appeared and asked if we wanted food. We said yes! She pulled out the Bhagavad Gita and started talking about it. She offered it to Douma, but she didn’t want it. I said that I’d take it. The whole situation was reminding of how I’d received Initiation, which I’d just been telling Douma about!

     So we sat with the lady and had some food. It was all very nice. Somehow we got to talking about Yoga and Pablo. Suddenly the ladies expression turned to surprise. She asked for details about Yoga. We realized that they’d met! Yoga had been to New Zealand for a week while I was staying with them. She must’ve gone to one of the Hare Krishna temples and met this same lady. I couldn’t believe it. It was insane.    

     Douma and I hung out in the park and played guitar for a while. 

    The next day we went for a hike. We took the bus through the mountain to Lyttelton. 

    We needed to hitchhike to the top of the mountain where the hike began. We walked part of the way. No one was coming. We stood there and stuck out our thumbs. No one stopped! 

    At one point we were chatting when suddenly a car driving the other direction pulled over. The driver asked if we needed a lift to the top. We said yes and hopped in. She immediately started talking about how she was a healer and how she’s into all the spiritual stuff I’m interested in! It was so weird. She started talking about The Arcturians. They’re the channel that I listen to the most. It was so crazy. My head was spinning. She drove us up and then did some energy stuff to us. 

    Douma and I hiked for about 3 hours. It was good. We finished at a little beach. We got a lift back into town with a friendly driver. Douma and I got a sorbet and then took the bus.

    Today I met up with Douma and her friend from Taiwan. We went for coffee. Afterwards we went to the art museum and the library. The Taiwanese girl was heading to work after. I asked if they are hiring. She said they were. I went with her and spoke to the manager. We’ll see if anything comes from that. 

    I’m moving into my new place tomorrow. I really need work. I haven’t heard back from the labour agencies. I thought that one of them would have had me working by now. 

    Everything will work out, though. It’s gonna be ok.