Limitless Nights

 May 14, 2023

    I want to talk to you. I want to feel you here. I’d love to know about your day and to ask you questions. Who is it that you want? You want some sort of hug. Or do you want to feel closer to knowing? How are you getting on? Are you smart? Are you talking to people who are understanding? How is this happening? Think about it for a second. Just close your eyes and let the wind roll in. Let the sun set and let the rivers flow. Let it all in and let it out. Think about the moon on the water. It’s bubbling now. All that pent up rage. It’s coming out in waves. It just wants to give. More and more and more. 

    Now think about death. The act of dying. It’s a Holy thing. It is meant to be cherished and worshipped. If you want to know about life you must embrace death. You must see it in every aspect of this universe. It’s not a mistake. It’s not the end. It’s not done. It’s part of a cycle that you can observe in every aspect of nature. In every aspect of reality. Coming and going. Rising and falling. Over and over again. It’s cyclical. 

An Honest Man's Dream

 May 12, 2023

    My dream is to sell the kids and get payed. I’d love to buy stocks in coal. I think there’s a lot of money to be made. I also think that people need to get in touch with their inner bitches. They need to talk to themselves a little more often. Maybe think about building walls between their eyes. That way they’re like hens. Just an idea.

    What if I was financially free? No more borrowing from family. No more lack. It would allow me time. That way I can grow in my music and art and hobbies. The money really just gives me time. I wouldn’t have to work a job that I don’t like. The goal is get payed doing something that I love but also teaches me things related to my interest. It’s always changing. These days I’d like to be payed to play music at bars, cafe’s, restaurants. I wanna just practise and practise and practise. Get better all the time. And be payed to do it. It seems like a magical life. For now. At some point it’ll change. It’s always changing. That’s the kinda life I want. Constantly changing, but always spiralling upwards. Constant evolution. 

    His hands are the size of diaries. I wanna talk to the aliens. To the beings around me. They are myself, after all. So I’m consciousness? Experiencing myself as a human? How many times have I done this? I guess if I’m everything and all time is now, then that question is a bit flawed? Because it would mean that if you zoom out far enough, I’m all the people on earth. I’m everything. But experiencing the illusion of feeling singular, or detached? It’s interesting. I’d love for more direct experiences. Although I have noticed that I’m so much more able to sense vibrations in my body. I can feel when it starts to resonate higher. I really feel it in the roots of my front teeth, which is so interesting. My hands as well. And it’s amazing when I can feel muscles suddenly decompress. It feels so good. It’s like they release all this tension and shake for a second, like a tiny earthquake. 

Young Friends

May 11, 2023

    Dreams 
  

      I was walking along. I saw Aksel, Owen and Nigel up ahead. They were running together towards a playground. As they pass by Aksel acknowledges me. I run with them. We run down a hill and arrive at the park. We get on this train. The train goes around in circles in the playground. There was lots of laughing. We’re our current age in the dream. 

One of Elon Musks rockets is taking off. It’s the largest rocket in the world. There’s one person inside. It’s just a test flight. The rocket takes off. It goes up and up, but not into space. The capsule with the pilot detaches and comes back down. It lands in the ocean.